Before I found this practice of yoga, I wasn't exactly "yogi material". I was in a very dark place for a very long time, but I did a good enough job hiding behind a facade of wit, jokes, sarcasm, spontaneously absurd behavior, and many bad habits. Like many people, I've always had issues with how I perceived myself. Growing up, I was a chubby kid, so I developed a particular loathing towards my body. But more than that, I realized that I just suffered with general self-loathing. "You're a screw-up", "you're irresponsible", "you can't make anything of yourself". I lost track of which words people said to me and which ones I said to myself. So maybe I wasn't "yogi material", but I was certainly a good candidate for yoga.
Truth be told, stumbling into yoga was a complete accident. I used to mock people who I saw carrying "those ridiculous mats", and doing "that ridiculous hippy exercise". Yeah, I was *that* guy. I don't really remember my first yoga class, and I'm ok with that, because I remember many practices since then. The first things I noticed changing through this practice was my body. I remember looking at a photo taken of me and thinking "is that really me?". I had lost significant weight. My skin looked different. Even my hands looked different. Of course, this is nothing compared to the deeper transformation that happened - and is still happening.
I still have days (many days) when I find myself in the dark. I still have days when I look at my body with disgust. I still have bad days, and I still have days when my head feels like it will explode from all of the internal chatter. Those days and moments will continue to happen, but yoga gave me a real, tangible outlet. It gave me a new lens to view what's happening ousside (howbow dah?), as well as what's happening inside.
As a teacher, I look forward to any opportunity to spread this life-changing practice (hackneyed, I know). Yoga is healing. It's integrative. It's rehabilitative, grounding, and it's always relevant. It's exciting to live in a time where so much new research is coming out to support the efficacy of certain practices of yoga. And I'll happily talk for hours about it's almost infinite, fractal-like areas of applicability.
Where my fellow yoga-nerds at??